i'm trying to transport all these somewhere else

is this thing on?

http://twitter.com/#!/lila_engel

julielaurenvick.tumblr.com

so this is still here

hi. twitter has made me incapable of long posts. sorry.

Back in Brooklyn

I haven't updated this thing in over a year- almost two. I should try to be better about it. 

arachnophobia was a drug movie?

Meth Addicts Demand Government Address Nation's Growing Spider Menace

WASHINGTON, DC—Activists called for federal assistance as a last resort after trying to contain the problem with diplomacy, cathode rays, and methamphetamines.

special investigators

scarlett had a dream where the three of us were working in some kind of outlet shop involving slightly irregular goods. we were all mentally retarded, although she doesn't know how she knew this in the dream. what i mean is- none of us acted that different, but dream truth had us retarded and that was that. in our spare time we solved crimes like the bloodhound gang on 321 contact. "Very small crimes," according to Scarlett.

giving thanks

The Joyless Club

thanks again to Harper's Magazine.

The Joyless Club

From personal ads posted on Asexual Marriage Net, a marriage broker website in china. More than 7,000 people have joined since the website was launched last year. Translated from the Chinese by Daniel Mattingly.

Sex has never interested me. In fact, I find it a little filthy. The doctor told me this is common, but it is not a short-term feeling I can change. I hope to find a girl in the same plight. One day we can walk down the aisle together, raise children, support our parents, and spend our energy on work and living a good, happy life.

- Little Jiang, male, age twenty-three

I hope you already understand the social and sexual sides of marriage. Let’s concentrate on the social side.

-Shriveled Pebble, male, age thirty-two

Due to a physical dysfunction, I cannot have sex. I don’t dare let a woman love me, since I do not want to harm an innocent girl or ruin another person’s life. But whenever I look at the gray hairs of my parents, the pressure to marry has me feeling beat. I must repay them for the decades they spent raising me. Maybe you and I can come together to make a house of misfortune?

-Hand in Hand Forever, male, thirty-five

I suffer from premature ejaculation. I had a love affair, but it ended unhappily. Nowadays, I only think about finding my other half. I could have a little sex, or none, whatever.

-Heartfelt Love, male, thirty-six

I do not want to ruin an innocent heterosexual, but with the passing of my thirty-fourth birthday, the stress is mounting. I have not had a girlfriend to show my friends and colleagues. Whether we get married is not important - at least I will save my face.

-Zong Ling, male, age thirty-four

I’m an elegant, honest, intellectual woman who likes platonic love affairs and wishes for this kind of marriage. We can establish a family that is warm and sexless.

-Feng Yalan, female, age twenty-four

I am not beautiful or seductive, but I am honest. Because of a birth defect, I might be unable to have a normal sex life. If two people don’t have sex, can there be love? Can an asexual couple have a happy life together? I believe yes.

- Wishing for Love, female, age twenty-eight

God doomed me from birth to live out my life as half a man. I know this means I cannot love whom I want and I cannot accept a woman’s love. I only want to find someone as unfortunate as me, so we can face our destinies together.

-Expecting Loneliness, male, thirty-two

I don’t have any diseases. I am just cold in bed.

-Cucumber, female, age twenty-three